Wayan Satya

Having a baby

Having a baby has been an incredible journey toward feeling more complete. Honestly, I didn’t realize how much it would fill a space in my life until this little one arrived. It’s not just the adorable moments, like those wide, trusting eyes looking up at me, it’s this deeper sense of purpose that’s kicked in. There’s a drive now, knowing I’m not just here for myself anymore, but for this tiny person who depends on me. It’s ignited a motivation to step up and be the best version of myself.

That said, let’s not sugarcoat it, things get messy fast. Sleep? Yeah, that’s a distant memory. I used to manage fine with six hours, now, three uninterrupted ones feel like a win. Work doesn’t pause either, deadlines don’t care about a fussy baby or a diaper situation that’s pure chaos. Life gets scrambled, no doubt. Yet, within that disorder, you adapt. You learn to juggle priorities, let go of perfection, and find a strange calm amidst the storm. It’s challenging, but it builds a resilience I didn’t know I had.

My wife and I approach it like a relay race, less passing the baton and more running it together as a team. She might handle the late-night cries while I catch a quick nap, or I’ll prep a bottle while she’s on a call. We’re constantly in sync, even if we stumble sometimes. That partnership keeps us grounded. It’s not always flawless, but knowing we’re in this as a unit makes the tough days doable and the good ones, like a rare quiet night, feel like a shared victory.

The responsibility of parenthood is substantial, and it’s shaping me in ways I didn’t expect. It’s like being thrust into a leadership role without a manual. Every decision, whether it’s soothing a cry or managing a hectic day, demands confidence and clarity. I’m learning to trust myself, to lead with patience, and to grow into someone my child can rely on. This experience is stretching my capacity, building grit and composure I didn’t know I could muster. Having a baby isn’t just about raising them, it’s about raising myself too. Through the noise and the mess, I’m discovering a stronger, more capable me, and that’s something I’m genuinely proud of.